Other than going back to hospital twice I hadn't ventured out anywhere for a stroll or a wander. I guess in a hospital even the public there are used to and expecting to see ill folk. In the outside world being stared at is just par for the course but nevertheless irritating. I probably wouldn't so any different but whether it's people passing or looking from cars it's obvious they're wondering what happened or having a nosey.
I never really got the urge to go out and when others asked if I had yet I wasn't really bothered. But today in the cold sunshine was refreshing and just what I needed to brush off the cobwebs. Before the accident I would take my dog out for atleast an hour an day so it seems bizarre to firstly not go far but also not really want to. I guess that's what changes, how your head adapts to not doing alot as you've been given the boundaries to do so (or not so so!). It's amazing how your mind adapts once you've been told it's ok to do nothing or ok to limit what you are doing.
Now I think I will go start going out alone after a few more wanders with friends. I may even go with someone else walking my dog and watch him run, something that is certain to cheer me up as he bounds around the park. It's such simple things but those are the things you miss. Like my future mother-in-law who has broken her arm said the other day, it's the brushing your teeth and putting on a bra that for a while atleast will feel novel. Then we'll go back to normality and take them for granted. But I'll never forget this time because even if others don't see it, it's changed me forever as even that slight brush with 'it could have been fatal' has been enough to make me feel different.
Enjoy being different and accept the things you cannot change...
Hbombotx
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