I just want to slouch!

By the end of the day I just want to slouch in this comfy chair or lie on the sofa with D or my dog or both. A few nights ago this couldn't be more apparent as I sloped off to bed early to get away from the brewing whinge. When i feel tired or sore I lay on my bed, I just did this headbutting the wall. Imagine always sitting up as straight as you can or lying in one position without moving on to your side. That pretty much encapsulates my position these days. Yeh I know it's not forever and I know I will get better but sometimes it's frustrating. Sometimes it's as irritating as an itch. Sometimes I have an itch I can't scratch. Sometimes I bang my head. Sometimes I want to stamp my feet and shout out how unfair this feels. But I seek solace in the fact this is only sometimes, I don't always feel this way and for that I gain alot of hope. I have always carried hope around like a cape and that cape you can keep on or you can take off. Most the time I keep it on but sometimes I choose to take it off and that's ok as it's going to be ok.
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