Taking my time, or trying to...

As I ease myself cautiously back into work and doing things at a leisurely pace I still battle my need to do and pack a million things into a day. Alot of what surrounds us is so achievement based that resting and relaxation doesn't get a look in. For me this is part of my recovery and the only way I know I won't suffer any set backs. So when I work now I take regular breaks, my body is pretty much telling me it needs them. But why do our heads jump so far ahead and almost lead us to believe that if we're not achieving then we're not complete?
When I see people on Facebook saying they've done this that and the other, aren't I friggin wonderful for fitting all that in, all I want to do frankly is say bully for you. What about people who can't do all these things, you're just rubbing their faces in it. Working within sport i've always been surrounded by frustrated (injured) achievers so now I can appreciate why others harping on about it can be irritating.
I know this is my problem, I can't skip ahead so I don't. I can manage three massages now when I used to bat out ten. But then I'm enjoying the 3 I do and looking back batting them out was never a place I wanted to get to. If I could have slowed life down and freed things up I would have. I loved that lifestyle of being able to fit things in so I guess now i'm back in that place. Where I felt free of being tied and possibilities were endless. Like floating in a pool and giving in to being immersed in the water.
Last week I went to a networking event about making the best of you. I have always believed your gut instincts were the best choice to take. I had been struggling with a major work decision and it reminded me to use my instincts as if you don't feel right about something it may not be right right now. This whole experience has shaken me, my confidence and my beliefs. At times I didn't know who I was. I'm not saying I'm fully enlightened now but I'm on my way to letting go of what isn't right for me and doing the things that are. People often tell me I need to be doing what's good for me and within my capabilities. I have a very physical job and I know that needs to be built up but wondering what other stuff I could be doing sets my mind racing. Along with that and trying to relax I'm being kept entertained!
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